Eh.. eh.. mic check, mic check. Is this thing on??? Ok.
Hi there ;) How is you? Kinda weird you may think, Reading a blog written for you. I wanted to do this face to face, but knowing you... mooooooost probably, you will transform into your "AWKWARD." mode and walk out on me before I even say anything. And, I thought of a letter and its the 21st century, right? So here it goes. Ya, I forgot one thing. You don't need to replay, I'm not looking for a response, all I want you to do is to completely stop thinking for 20 seconds and just listen/read. So here it goes...
I like you, I like you very much, I like you very very much. Why I chose the word "like" is because one it's less scarier and two there are actually people who I love but don't really like. So, Lets just say I like you [You should see my face when your name pops up on my screen :) ], I like you like Wade Wilson likes Vanessa Carlyle or Theresa Cassidy or DEATH or Himself... [You pick]
I think it's been obvious and you've known all along but I'm saying it to make sure you knew and that I know you know. and I liked you every since you were playing the "EMO" girl mood. And, Not only do I like you but I want you too. I know that sounds soooooo cheesy but that's the truth, my truth. I want you for ALWAYS and I want you the RIGHT WAY!!! But... Yes, there is a butt to it :P
But, That's just what I want, Me the selfish prick who only thinks about his wants. So it's better to dial it down to my needs. I just need you [I'm tearing as of right now], I need you in my life. I need you in any role you wish for me to have. A friend, a best friend, a "friend" ;) , a besty, a boy, the boy, the boy friend, the man, the lover, the looooooover, the "nice" guy, the shoulder to cry on, the **** to sit on, the clown ninja, the brother, the dadi, the mozaza, the tiftif, the seweyew... whatever but not the "someone I used to know" [Now that I think of it that dude has literally become someone we used to know, hmmm...]
[FOCUS MAN], I'm sorry for that and I think I'm done [Mic Dropped]!!
But before I closeout, I want to tell you Why? Why now?
Well,
Oh, forgot one thing. Happy Valentine's Day ;)
Hi there ;) How is you? Kinda weird you may think, Reading a blog written for you. I wanted to do this face to face, but knowing you... mooooooost probably, you will transform into your "AWKWARD." mode and walk out on me before I even say anything. And, I thought of a letter and its the 21st century, right? So here it goes. Ya, I forgot one thing. You don't need to replay, I'm not looking for a response, all I want you to do is to completely stop thinking for 20 seconds and just listen/read. So here it goes...
I like you, I like you very much, I like you very very much. Why I chose the word "like" is because one it's less scarier and two there are actually people who I love but don't really like. So, Lets just say I like you [You should see my face when your name pops up on my screen :) ], I like you like Wade Wilson likes Vanessa Carlyle or Theresa Cassidy or DEATH or Himself... [You pick]
I think it's been obvious and you've known all along but I'm saying it to make sure you knew and that I know you know. and I liked you every since you were playing the "EMO" girl mood. And, Not only do I like you but I want you too. I know that sounds soooooo cheesy but that's the truth, my truth. I want you for ALWAYS and I want you the RIGHT WAY!!! But... Yes, there is a butt to it :P
But, That's just what I want, Me the selfish prick who only thinks about his wants. So it's better to dial it down to my needs. I just need you [I'm tearing as of right now], I need you in my life. I need you in any role you wish for me to have. A friend, a best friend, a "friend" ;) , a besty, a boy, the boy, the boy friend, the man, the lover, the looooooover, the "nice" guy, the shoulder to cry on, the **** to sit on, the clown ninja, the brother, the dadi, the mozaza, the tiftif, the seweyew... whatever but not the "someone I used to know" [Now that I think of it that dude has literally become someone we used to know, hmmm...]
[FOCUS MAN], I'm sorry for that and I think I'm done [Mic Dropped]!!
But before I closeout, I want to tell you Why? Why now?
Well,
- maybe I was inspired by Deadpool :P
- maybe It's the Valentine's Fever
- One, You said every holiday should be celebrated and what better way to celebrate it than an honest, awkward, embarrassing confession of ones true emotion.
- Two, I think we've been through this before and there is no sense in doing it again, the same way. I can't speak for you but I've this tendency to think sometimes that we'r already in a silent relationship [maybe it's the peer pressure, maybe I'm not reading signs correctly...] and this turns me into a drama queen. And at other times I just think we'r good friends and that immediately makes me an emotionless ass/a dick. And, That feels like having two people living and living loudly in your head. So I'm trying to make peace between the two.
- Three, I JUST STOPPED THINKING, for a moment [20 Seconds]. I stopped trying to think about what people might think, I stopped doing the thinking for others and making my actions based on those assumption, because assumption are what they really are. I learned the best way to know what people think is to actually ask them [Though people are known to lie :) ]. I stopped thinking about what will happen tomorrow and I want to stop making big deal out of things in general. "It's just love, not a time bomb" right? [If I was thinking I would have thought "She's most probably thinking 'this dude just ruined it all'"]. :P
I believe people who are loved deserve to know they are loved. I believe it helps, It helped me. - But the best explanation is that,
THIS IS ME FACING ONE OF MY GREATEST FEARS.
THIS IS ME CHECKING "TWO", OFF MY BUCKET LIST. ;) https://www.bucketlist.org/list/Papix/
Oh, forgot one thing. Happy Valentine's Day ;)
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